Love Letters

When I was young my mother had a wooden box in the top drawer of her dresser that contained letters she and my father wrote to each other before they were married. I would sometimes sneak a peak at these letters. It showed me an aspect of my parents I didn’t ever see otherwise. These letters also greatly influenced the kind of man I wanted in my life – someone with whom I could share the love of God.

Volker and I also wrote letters to each other, before and after our marriage. I too keep them in a wooden box, along with some other special letters and things.


The two soft magnets were part of a valentine card I made for Volker that said,
“Pumpkins are orange,
zucchinis are green,
You’re the best husband
I’ve ever seen.”

The pink sugar cupid was on a cookie he bought for me.

The little shoes are slippers I made for my baby boy.

The child’s drawing is from a card that Trina made for me when she was six, “because I wanted to show you that I love you.”

My treasures!

When Mom moved to into long term care the wooden box was still in that drawer, but it was now empty and the lid was off. It was looking it’s age. I took it home.

letterbox1Because it had so influenced me, I want to pass that on somehow. My own kids are grown and married, so, I thought, I’d like to pass this on to my granddaughter. We have a lot of fun with mail because we live so far apart. I want her to treasure the really important things in life, the less tangible — the love we give and receive.

I asked my brother, Myron, who besides being a wonderful photographer, is really good in the refinishing department. Last night he brought Mom’s wooden box back to me. Isn’t it beautiful! Definitely a treasure box now!


As Mina is only four years old I will wait awhile before I give her this box, but in the meantime I will put a few treasure into it for her.


I have really been inspired by reading blogs on the internet. Sometimes one can feel so alone. And then you find out that you are not alone, there are many people in the world that see and feel things much the way you do.

I have also been inspired by the premise behind Happy Rambles and Sarah Bessey’s post on “What is saving your life right now?” to update this blog more often, and use the theme “What I am grateful for/what is saving my life.” I may throw in some of “What is killing me” to when warranted.

For today it is not my project that I’m putting in here, but my dear daughters. Trina has been experimenting with Tulle, turning it into tutus. Look for more information on her blog soon. And so I add a picture of my sweet wee girl:

Mina in a tutu
Little bird with bright feathers


I’m been struggling with my vision for a little while. A couple of years ago I got bifocals, but I couldn’t get used to them, couldn’t stand the “in between” place, which seemed always to be just where I was looking. Last summer I got reading glasses, and that was good. They are annoying, but I can see. About a month ago I realized that without my glasses I was seeing double, at least with my right eye. I made an appointment with the optometrist.

So yesterday was the day. I awoke with the beginnings of a migraine. Did all the little things I do to try to avoid a full-blown migraine, and was doing not too badly until that appointment. When you already have a pain, a pressure pushing on your eyeball, when the sunlight is already too bright, to have drops put into your eyes to open your irises, to have someone trying to hold your eyelid open — too much. No more avoiding the pain. Time to take the medication which will hold off most of it.

As my Mama has macular degeneration I am concerned about that. Thankfully, at this time there is no sign of that. But I did find out that the reason I’m seeing double can’t be fixed by any glasses — I have a cataract on my right eye. My dear Mama had one of those too, when she was 85!

Cataracts are caused by a clouding of the lens. The type I have starts around the outside edge and works its way in by ‘spokes.’ One of those spokes is going right across the centre of my eye, scattering the light that hits the lens so that I see double. The only cure is surgery — remove my defective lens and replace it with an artificial lens with the prescription to correct my eyesight in that eye (and my right eye has always been the weaker one). Bonus! And another bonus — I will now have one eye appointment a year covered by OHIP (as was this one, now that they found the cataract).

It may take months until it is done, but I am so looking forward to seeing better again!

my eye

Saving my life

What is saving your life right now?


Sarah Bessey, challenged others to post on “What is saving your life right now?”

What is saving my life right now?

In times past crocheting saved my life. Somehow organizing those threads helped me to organize my life. I crochet less these days, though I hope, after my visit to the optometrist next week, I will see better and in turn enjoy crocheting more again.

These days my computer and the internet save my life:

  •  the wonder of Skyping with my beloved daughter and granddaughter who are 4,000 km away.
  •  the joy of connecting with family and friends via email, Facebook, shared photos, blogs.
  •  the excitement of learning new things about the world we live in, from the news, from science sites, from gossip sites.
  •  the rest of just zoning out while playing solitaire.
  •  the fulfilment of creating a slideshow of memories
  •  getting a new vegetable in my Community Supported Agriculture share, going online to find a recipe.
  •  googling the address and printing out directions for a friend who need to travel to another city and wants to know how to get the hospital there to visit a friend
  • the lostness of a non-functioning computer and the relief in getting it back again

So I say loudly, “Thank God for my computer and the internet!”